Failure

I, I've been lonely

And I, I've been blind

And I,. I've learned nothing

So my hands are firmly tied

To the sinking leadweight

of failure

I've worked hard all my life

Money slips through my hands

My face in the mirror tells me

It's no surprise that I'm

Pushing the stone up the hill

of failure

They tempt me with violence

They punish me with ideals

And they crush me with an image of my

life that's nothing but unreal

Except on the goddamned slaveship

of failure

I'll drown here trying

to get up for some air

But each time I think I breathe

I'm laid on with a double share

of the punishing burden

of failure

I don't deserve to be down here

But I'll never leave

And I've learned one thing

You can't escape the beast

In the null and void pit

of failure

When I get my hands on some money

I'll kiss it's green skin

And I'll ask it's dirty face

"Where the hell have you been?"

"I am the fuel that fires the engine

of failure."

I'll be old and broken down

I'll forget who and where I am

I'll be senile or forgotten

But I'll remember and understand

You can bank your hard-earned money

on failure

I saw my father crying

I saw my mother break her hand

On a wall that wouldn't weep

But that certainly held in

The mechanical moans of a dying man

Who was a failure

My back hurts me when I bend

Because I carry a load

My brain hurts me like a knife-hole

Because I've yet to be shown

How to pull myself out from

The sucking quicksand

of failure

Some people live in hell

Many bastards succeed

But I. I've learned nothing

I can't even elegantly bleed

Out the poison blood

of failure