Unconsciously

Why does it change like an endless cycle

Where passion turns to request for an unconscious aggression?

Hesitate to follow an inner compulsion

Fertilise weed to feed furious violence

Once silence eased my pain, now it tears me apart

And a melody comes back, I used to know by heart

How to judge a man whose sincere intentions are supposed to die?

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously

Anxiety rouses apathy, paralysed by a well known crime

And emotions once called sympathy have left their bloody sign

I take a look at my hands and feel ashamed

Disgusted glance in the mirror and I cry in vain

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously

Tears, a dried up source confessed

Blue sea of failing hopes

I know I can't endure deceitfulness, no more

Now I hear it, deserted cries and loneliness again

Tell me how to leave this way, I can't

Behind the mist lies a memory

A flickering fire still remains

It could not avert their agony and all the suffering I left behind

But can it still heat up the cold?

Never again

I approached too far, I know

Who can forgive me?

There's a voice appealing once more

Melodies that I've heard before can't resist those bewitching whores

A thousand sounds in my head, they're promising so much

Deriding values and dreams and hope and trust

And I feel in me the power to destroy

Just to destroy unrestrained emotions and joy

Miserable memories, miserable memories, miserable memories

Miserable memories, miserable memories, dawn

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously