Uncounciously

Why does it change like an endless cycle where passion

turns to request for an unconscious aggression

Hesitate to follow an inner compulsion

Fertilise weed to feed furious violence

Once silence eased my pain, now it tears me apart

And a melody comes back I used to know by heart

How to jugde a man whose sincere intentions

Are supposed to die?

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously

Anxienty rouses apathy, paralysed by a well known crime

and emotions once called sympathy have left their bloody sign

I take a look at my hands and feel ashamed

Disgusted glance in the mirror and I cry in vain

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously

Tears – a dried up source confessed

Blue sea of failing hopes - oh no

I can’t endure deceitfulness - no more

Now I hear it, deserted cries and loneliness again

Tell me how to leave this way – I can’t

Behind the mist lies a memory

A flickering fire still remains

It could not avert their agony

And all the suffering I left behind

But can it still heat up the cold?

Never again - I approached too far

I know. Who can forgive me?

There’s a voice appealing once more

Melodies that I’ve heard before

Can’t resist those bewitching whores…

A thousand sounds in my head they’re promising

so much deriding values and dreams

And hope and trust and I feel in me

The power destroy just to destroy

Unrestrained emotions and joy

Miserable memories… damn

Poisonous force deep in me drowning me unconsciously