Would Have Killed

and you know what I know

why would you think to do this to me

a reason so simple

you could never dream the answer

if we're so different from ourselves

could I have seen this inner you

and touched its face for ever a brief moment

and standing back, now so detached from you

I realize why you didn't want me there

I would have killed if just this one time

time was on our side

and even when we walk away

you would have cared that I tried

and I had so much left to tell you

so many pieces left to place

but now the puzzle fell apart

to just the shadow of your face

I would have killed for the last chance

would have bled a thousand miles

through the thorns that line the path

just to kneel beside you as you were collapsing

and holding both hands

I could say I was still there

it's killing me

but I'm still here