Kinda Numb

Not gonna lie, my chest is tighter than before

Yeah it was me, but why am I lying on the floor?

I never thought I'd be the one to give it up

But then I felt too much then didn't feel enough

And I know that my head's been racing

I don't do well with replacing

Kinda jealous, kinda faking all

And the thought of you with someone else

Made me wanna prove myself

By putting up another stupid wall

So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad

It's maybe cuz I cared

I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad

But maybe I was scared

And I've been doing bigger things

But you're still everywhere

It's not fair

Something bout you makes me go insane

And there's something making that okay

Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way

But maybe you feel the same?

Not gonna lie, I know that I messed it all up

I should have tried but I find it so hard to trust

So many lies, I guess I've gotten sorta numb

Wish I could explain why my heart's been acting dumb

And I know that my head's been racing

I don't do well with replacing

Kinda jealous, kinda faking all

And the thought of you with someone else

Made me wanna prove myself

By putting up another stupid wall

So I'm sorry if I'm kinda mad

It's maybe cuz I cared

I thought it wouldn't hurt me bad

But maybe I was scared

And I've been doing bigger things

But you're still everywhere

It's not fair

Something bout you makes me go insane

And there's something making that okay

Yeah I know I shouldn't feel this way

But maybe you feel the same?