Suicide Letters

[1st Verse]

Picture me

In a casket

Blasted

Never nobody

Knew how long

The pain lasted

Keep my eyes tight

I'm frightened

But I fights like Tyson

When playin' this game of life

I'm losing

Longing to be enlightened

Absorb my mind state

Reduce the crime rate

And take me out

When running toward the Lord

I see 'em fake me

Out shook me

So from church I play hookie

Listen to the words of a brother

The sick stutters

So you better better

Get the get the bags ready

Comes a killer killer

Like Skagnetti

My brains contaminated

Hella rotten

Wasn't me that killed you

Who was it what was it

The effects of the mildew

My brain's wilted

In my eyes the world is a bit tilted

Lord take me away

Before somebody else gets killed

Blood spilled

Seriously

This is the letter to my homies

I'll be missin'

God told me to behold a pale horse

But I didn't listen

It's hard man

My life is scarred man

I'm losing my mind

So now it's time

Sincerely sign

N9NE

[Chorus]

I just wanna die

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way that I feel

I'm barely hanging on

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]

[2nd Verse]

I made your life a living hell

With my infidelity

Remember your telling me

All I give a damn about

Is weed stems and melodies

Remember you

Spent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lot

Crying

When the blood test read

The baby of another woman was mine

99.99

You should've left

Along time ago like Mary J. say

Just let it go like Ray J.

Con't

I know your mamma heard

You yelling mayday

Spent my life trying to R-A to the P

You sick of me

Always bein' B to the R-O-K to the E

Now there's nothin'

Else left of me

I was a bum

But you still wanted some

Through the rain, snow and thunder

Foul ups , bleeps and blunders

But no man shall tear asunder

Is what you said

You should've put multi bullets

In my head

When you found that evil

Instinct was a song

Where the events actually went on

This is the letter

To my homie, my friend

Who put up with me for 8

So now to take me

Really quickly is my fate

I'm sorry

For making it hard

I know your scarred

I'm losing my mind

So now it's time

Sincerely sign

N9ne

[Chorus]

I just want to die

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way that I feel

I'm barely hanging on

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]

[3rd Verse]

I love ya'll

The dynamic duo, my babies

It ain't your fault

That your daddy's crazy

Donny,

I miss your drumming like me

One day you'll be ruling

Leelee,

I miss you in my face

Yellin'

Daddy, what you doin'

You two are the reason

Why I'm still standing today

But I'm 1600 miles away

And you get my heart sinkin'

When I start thinkin' about you babies

I heavily start drinkin'

On a daily puffin'

I'm seeing my heart

I gots to toughin'

Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin'

So I keep bussin'

Use my pain for you two

I've gotta come up in the game

So one day you can do the same with yours

Love you galore

And I ain't playin'

makin' me put an end

To this suicidal mind state sayin'

[chorus]

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way I feel

I'm barely hanging on

I don't want to wake up

I don't wanna cuz

That's the way it has to be

[repeat 2x]