All I Ever Wanted

I can only say these things to you when you're sleeping

I hear the hum from the wires and the sounds of the morning creep in

I lie awake and pretend you can hear me

And you tell me that you're scared that you're turning into your mother

I feel myself turning into my father

We could lie to each other like they do and say we're so happy

It's easy when you're young and you still want it so badly

And I feel my heart burning

And I think I might scream

And I could tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear

Oh, I can utter every word you ever hoped to hear

I shudder when I think that I might not be here

Forever, forever, forever

That night you whispered like a ghost and looked so shaken

You were so quiet and small and you tell me you want to be taken

I just never think of you as the kind of girl who would say that

And you certainly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp

Your eyes so wide, your face aglow

It's the face of someone I don't know

And I could tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear

I can utter every word you've ever hoped to hear

I shudder when I think that I might not be here

Forever, forever, forever

All I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion

To own your fears like soldiers and slay them

I can tell you that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear

Through the din of your breathing while you’re sleeping here

You wake and ask me if I’m gonna be here

Forever, forever, forever

Your face so twisted and your eyes alight

I want to tell you I can change it when you cry at night

But I’d be lying

Love is defying