All These Engagements

They say it's so much better to have loved and lost

Than to have lived in a bubble never knowing the cost

Of a broken heart like a loaded gun, it scares everyone, everyone, everyone, everyone

Tells me the same thing every day: You're wasting your time, just wasting away

There's a hole in your heart. Just go fill it with love

But what is love? What is love? What is love?

What is this thing I've been told since thirteen years old

Where you feel understood, undeniably good?

It's a stain on your sneaker, a hole in your speaker

A feeling apart when you've emptied your heart

She's at the upstairs windowpane

As the young boy cries in the rain

She'll never know the power she wields

As the thunder falls on his ears

And he tells himself, "Never again"

All these engagements and lover's spit

As they grasp at a future and promise it

Will be joyful and fruitful, we're better as two

And I cried too, I cried too, I cried too, I cried

Hoping you'd hear me and see right through

All the endless denial I gave to you

I was childishly hoping you'd pull me through

I want it too, want it too, want it too

I want it to change me and lift me explain me and give me

A moment of time less alone in my mind

When I felt so strange you would hold me and say

" I'm stranger Than you can imagine. It's true

And I'm yours and I'm yours and I'm here

And I swear there's nothing to fear

So the young woman lies on the bed

While the young man hears lies in his head

And there's no one there and nothing left to be said

All these engagements and lover's spit

All these engagements and lover's spit

All these engagements and lover's spit

They grasp for it. They beg for it

They smother it and cling to it

All these engagements and lover's spit

All these engagements and lover's spit

All these engagements and lover's spit

They grasp for it. They beg for it

They smother it and cling to it

Love is kind

Love is fair

Love is real

Love is true

I was wrong

I held on

I waited for you

To be whole