I Hate Hartley

Seems life forever,

like forever

since i tore myself apart

and left my friends in the wake

of countless tears and fading life.

when i couldn't seem to grasp the life i lead

and the lives i touch

its one year on now

one year on, one year on

still i struggle with the same demons

i shed as i laid there lost in my head

lost in my head

(lost in this goddamn hospital bed)

i'm not the same man

and i don't dare try

(try to uncover all the darkness i hide)

its like my demons are my lovers

but i've got friends by my side

i've got hope in my eyes

and dreams to aspire too

and the whole wide world to watch below

(and death won't be my lover

i've got so much left to give

and take my life with subtle steps

instead of not wanting all that is left)

instead of trying to take my own life

its one year on

and i'm stronger, i want to live much longer

not grow old and bitter

and not jaded

and not hate what life gave me

let the fear wash away

let the demons blunt their claws

on a life that's full of mistakes

but always searching for much more

i won't die defeated

I won't die defeated

i won't die defeated

i won't die

cause i've got friends by my side

i've got hope in my eyes

and dreams to aspire too

and the whole wide world to watch below

(and death won't be my lover

i've got so much left to give

and take my life with subtle steps

instead of not wanting all that is left

no death won't be my lover

i've got so much left to give

and take my life with subtle steps

instead of not wanting all that is left)