Epilogue

In a nightmare, I am falling

From the ceiling into bed beside you

You're asleep, I'm screaming

Shoving you to try to wake you up

And like before, you've got no interest

In the life you live when you're awake

Your dreams still follow storylines

Like fictions you would make

So I lie down against your back

Until we're both back in the hospital

But now it's not a cancer ward

We're sleeping in the morgue

Men and women in blue and white

They are singing all around you

With heavy shovels holding earth

You're being buried to you neck

In that hospital bed

Being buried quite alive now

I'm trying to dig you out

But all you want is to be buried there together

You're screaming

And cursing

And angry

And hurting me

And then smiling

And crying

Apologizing

I've woken up, I'm in our bed

But there's no breathing body there beside me

Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep

But I know better as my eyes adjust

You've been gone for quite a while now

And I don't work there in the hospital

They had to let me go

When I try to move my arms sometimes

They weigh too much to lift

I think you buried me awake

My one and only parting gift

But you return to me at night

Just when I think I may have fallen asleep

Your face is up against mine

And I'm too terrified to speak

You're screaming

And cursing

And angry

And hurting me

And then smiling

And crying

Apologizing

You're screaming

And cursing

And angry

And hurting me

And then smiling

And crying

Apologizing