I’m Not Getting Excited

I'm not getting excited

'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in

Just the chill when I learn

That it's finally my turn

I have finally earned

My place in the urn

And I take a fall

But I keep my hands soft

I keep my body limp

And I move with the wind

I'll go where it bends

And the goal or the expectation

I'm not getting excited

'Cause the line on my phone's got me hiding

When it flashes at night

It's the bringer of signs

I can see through my eyelids

I know that it's time

And I hold it all

But I keep my hands soft

For the answer in asking

My thoughts are a wreck

And there's no point untangling

The thought from the action

I'm awake

Why is it like the other side

Where all my vital signs are fading away

Violent dreams keep me awake

I wear the same face in the morning

A warning

Not getting excited

'Cause my fight and my flight are divided

And so I don't enthuse

Keep my grip on joy loose

And I wait for the news

With my feet in my shoes

And I lose it all

With one foot out the door

When I smile I lie

With my eye to the side

So I agree with goodbye

I agree with goodbye

Goodbye

But why is it like the other side

Where all my vital signs are fading away

Violent dreams keep me awake

I wear the same face in the morning

A warning

A warning