Path To Sorrow

sitting here thinking back

on the better days, the days gone past

before the change, the way things were

when everything was new and pure

when life was free and filled with hope

when everything was explained in full

those days are near forgotten

the ache of today replaces them

what about tomorrow?

will I have reached the goal?

or died forgotten,

with nothing to show?

"don't get your hopes up son,

there are no guarantees in life but one

that eventually you'll die.

that's a guarantee you cannot escape from."

so i'm sitting here - all alone

it's always worse when no one's home

why should I continue on

if death is the only final outcome?

to pursue some mythical success

that some have been fooled to think exists?

only to meet frustration and die

still they go on trying and trying and...

I refuse to live that lie

but then what is there but to die?

I knew I require some change

but every day comes up the same...fruitless

failure - so many say

I slow them down i'm in the way

spineless - got me convinced they've reached security

weakling - got me pegged

as if alone they've reached success

hopeless - all I am, the difference between

this world betrays

this world, it feasts upon me

failure - far too weak

can't even stand on your own two feet

spineless - you could never make it in this world of ours

weakling - they scream at me

inside your self is the strength you need

hopeless - the strong survive the weak are devoured

failure - I feel defeat

but I see now they're hiding something

spineless - draw my attention far away from hope

weakling - away from God, away from love

shake their fists at him above

hopeless - could it be? he shakes the world the lie they hold

my loneliness is evidence of my failure

to stay would mean to pursue some goal

which has eluded me so far

they say I need no one else, only myself

unfortunately that way of life leaves me nothing but hell