Drugs

'Cause I had the best of the worst sides

And I had these lungs, oh

And I had too many flash fires

That I just let them burn

Till my chest is on fire

And my head just won't die

I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna

I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like it's move or slowly die

You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you and you know it

But ain't that just the point?

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I'm still caught below

And I'll never let you know

No I can't tell you nothing

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just cos' I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lying's the only rush I need

'Cause all I needed was some words to say

That all these feelings don't mean shit to me

'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway

And I got way to many routes to take

To make this all just go away

And find another heart to break

So heartless with the words I say

Just saying what I'm supposed to say

'Cause I had nothing for you

I can't love when I can't even love myself

Things I would rather be thoughts at the back of my head

But I'm addicted to hurting

And I got these lungs

And I spent too many late nights

Just thinking a hole in the earth

Till the sky is on fire

And my head still won't die

I guess I'm lying cause I wanna

I guess I'm lying cause I don't

'Cause I just feel so tired

Like I need something to come alive

She said: You ain't you when you're like this

This ain't you, what you done?

And I said that's the point

You don't know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing

But I'm so caught bellow

And I'll never let you know

No I can't tell you nothing

Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

Cause I'm a fucking mess inside

And I'll say what I don't mean

Just cause I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lyings the only rush I need