Finally Understand

Creeping up on the hours

That will interfere with my day tomorrow

I don't think I'll ever leave my bed

Its not as if the list compiled

Will be touched upon no work no trial

I'm starting to feel all the days pass

When the men return

In a binge of self medication

The ghost of me drenches you with love

That twist in my chemisty unwinds and comes undone

Return to that useless soul,

That useless soul of silence.

I finally understand why you left seemed so obvious (x2)

When I kiss you goodnight

It doesn't matter just how quiet

I will read it all in the glaze of your eyes

Your not happy; haven't been for weeks, months on end

Still you spend every waking moment with me.

All the years that were pleasurable are now holding you prisoner

And now everyday you wait for them to return.

Words start scrambling a place where man had oxygen

As I fail to say what you, what you need to hear.

Well you deserve, you deserve someone better.

I finally understand why, why you left seemed so obvious (x2)

Guess its hard to see, guess its hard to believe

That there was once so much room to breathe.

I've been leaning on you for over three years

Your down on one leg slipping in a river of tears.

I finally understand why, why you left seemed so obvious (x2)

I finally understand, how could I have been so blind (x2)

You deserve, you deserve someone better