Discomfort Revisited

Carry an illness and practically know it by name.

Seldom speaks for you,you learned to tune it away.

But it wasn't easy

Fond of your writing

I dont need to see into you

You hid behind the similes

Fractal light in all shades of blue pebbles and mirrors

I'm just jealous because I tried mapping out your mind

Inconsistent ways, tangled and untied

I watched your ends start to fray

You felt buried from the start

Tearing you apart,

Constricting the free-beating of your heart

I knew your postcard would say,

"Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way."

Asked to be admitted,they put a lock on your door

Subdued, medicated, face to linoleum floor

And you tried to break away

Painted window panes, bars behind the glass, molded to the frame

You saw yourself in those days

You felt buried from the start

Tearing you apart,

Constricting the free-beating of your heart.

I knew your postcard would say,

"Wish you could stay,wish you felt the same way."

I am tearing up pieces of old news

To mend the leaks in my open wounds,

Protect your pressure points I refuse to press against

Let your self renew

Project the voice that I found for you

Pull up the weeds,from the ground they grew

Feel soil under your toes,it’s you

You have forever

Felt weaker when I bent, beaten to the end

Folding on myself, too damaged to mend

I couldn't hold all the weight

You felt buried from the start

Tearing you apart,

Injuring yourself dragging from my arm

I knew your postcard would say,

"I know your new heart still desires to play

And who would I be to keep it all for me?"

Wish I could stay, wish I felt the same way.