Reflection In The Blade

Beneath a perfect sky

The sun begins to fade

I cover up my eyes

So nothing seems so grey

After the rain I thought that I

Could face another day

But in the depth of my denial

I feel the brightness stray

Reflection in the blade

The face of my self hate

I gently lift the sleeves

I try to find my veins

Just one small cut

It's all I really need

To feel the blood run cold

It sets my mind free

I'm on my knees I pray

Don't let this be a sin on my head

To gain eternal rest

We can't persist in this dismay

I damn the de-ja-vus of life

And wish myself to sleep

If all I wanted was a blade

Would I be cursed unto this loathsome place?

The dawn beams down

Radiant and bright

I can't face you now

So leave me here to fall

I think of your face

My life's only joy

Tears roll down your cheek

You're standing all alone

Rain falls all around

There's a hole in the ground

The tombstone lays blank

You can't remember my face

Regret consumes me

We can't leave it like this

After the rain I thought that I

Could face myself again

But my reflection bares a side that

Still brings me to shame

Rest from pain

I want to die

Cut my wrists

Let them bleed

Searching for something

But don't know why I keep trying

Wasting away without a sign

Disguise a silent fate

You'll throw the blame on everyone

But its just destiny

Wash my sins

Away with blood

Red the hue

Of my demise

You never tried to see my view

You never wanted to see

I never wanted to be you

Why can't you just let me be?

Wasted all my time

On hating it's draining

You whisper so you can blame us

When we haven't heard

I'm getting so cold

I'm nearing the end

I can't turn back now

I have made my choice