The Day I Understood

So far I stand, looking closely again

It's loose but solid, so clean and tarnished

So lost again, a map in my hand

So full and empty, with so little but plenty

At times we get so lost and devastated

Our paths are vague but still so regulated

At times we feel so tired of trying to try

Wishing we could change all the things that make us

Cry, I won't try to wash these tears out from my

Eyes, I won't try, cause they're the kind that never

Dry, they collide with everything I've ever tried to hide

And keep inside

Above, I'm sitting, so loose but fitting

I'm starved by eating, so cured by bleeding

My gut is mislead by all the pictures I've read

My memory's dead but your remain in my head

Now I'm sealed but leaking

So silently speaking. Now I understand

I've confused my reading

A door closed but open

Brand spanking new and broken

So belligerent and strident

But I haven't even spoken