Long Time Friends

Another little abuse

Another pointless excuse

Another joke that’s not to laugh at

Another day feeling like I don’t belong

I really don’t belong

So, I end another day feeling totally betrayed

Say hello to anger - did you miss me?

I know it so well like a long time friend

Who smiles while poisoning me

And I don’t know if they still love me

And I don’t know if they still care

But all I really know is I am sorry

I let you make me grow so un - prepared

I'm pulling at the root to tear you off me

To see if I’ll have something left

And even if it means I'm starting over

And everything I made with you means nothing

Well that doesn’t matter

I'm alone and I'm free

'Cause there’s nothing really wrong with me

And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me

Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime

So I'm drawing my line in the sand

'Cause I know it doesn’t matter

Another thing to remake

Another patient mistake

Another self humiliation

A better day happy that I won’t belong

Does anyone belong?

So, I end a lonely day feeling totally okay

Wave goodbye to anger - will you miss me?

I knew it so well like a long time friend

We’ll never be friends again

I don’t really know if they still love me

And I don’t know if they still care

But all I really know is I'm not sorry

'Cause I am on my own with no one there

To make me feel alone when they are with me

It sounds insane but au contraire

I'm cutting off the parts that kill the body

Because they never played me fair and square and

I feel fucking awesome

I'm alone and I'm free

'Cause there’s nothing really wrong with me

And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me

Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime

So I'm drawing my line in the sand

'Cause I know it doesn’t matter

I don’t really think about your love now

And I don’t think that I still care

I know without a doubt if you could see me

I would ruin your week, your month, your year

'Cause you don’t have a victim you can poison

So now the poison’s all you have

I'm living a new life and don’t regret it

And you just have the memory

Bet you’ll never forget it because now

I'm alone and I'm free

'Cause there’s nothing really wrong with me

And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me

Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime

So I'm drawing my line in the sand

'Cause I know it doesn’t matter (do they even know what love is)

Yeah I know it doesn’t matter (are they growing tired of this)

Yeah I know it doesn’t matter (on my own I’ll float above this)

And I don’t really know