Regret

Awkward and sensual

A drunk intellectual

I ate your shadow for breakfast

Now it won't let me go

Social obligations--Remember me?

When I helped you lay the bricks

Mason--Tending sheep

I'm just another blurry face in the background of someone's home video

And as far as pity goes

I call this city home in vain

Every promise I broke along the way--ashamed to live alone

Closed narcissistic textbook for all the right reasons

But still left shook

'Cuz there's nothing left in this town

Spit at my reflection because I left you all down

Maybe I've searched for something I could never find?

Now I think every moment how I've wasted all my time

And I'm screaming out...

Don't let me down.

I got a sour grape syndrome--deserves its' own attendant

With a smiley face and a silver pendant

I penned it

But I forgot logic in the backseat of the taxi

And I'm straddling Earth fighting the waves of the Black Sea

I had the craving to crave of living my own life

But in this labyrinth maze of wrong shit is half right

Now I'm baked out colors and pasted notes

And I awake to the mother of my wasted hope

I hope my brain can cope

With another painful stroke

Of a brush with paint that flows

So deep with the veins that I'm dosed

Crumbling over the memories where they so closely linger

Lost in the calm of the winter

Marked by tasteless jokes

Was a patient bloke, but my patience broke

And I'm draped in the foam of salty seas

With waves that choke

This damned disease, I know

It makes me dream of better histories glittering with gleaming gold

I wish I could take it all back

Every mistake

Every thought that I've ever had

Erased and gone with a running fog in a flash

But it's never easy as that

When dreams are defeated and dragged to the ground

I'll scream to clouds now

Nothing lasts

Maybe I've searched for something I could never find?

Now I think every moment how I've wasted all my time

And now there's nothing here so I've left it all behind

And I'm screaming out

Don't let me down...