Lament

Hear my lament!

With my head in my hands, I wait for answers

But in the cold I feel so alone

Trapped and buried beneath the burden of a conscience of billions

Decaying and deceiving in the browns and greys of antipathy

Dwelling with the dissection of motives and memories

Look me in the eyes till only the whites remains

I cannot breathe

These leaden arteries, I cry for reprieve

I cannot breathe

These leaden arteries, they are all I know

I cannot breathe

These leaden arteries, blackened with decay and grief

I cannot breathe

These leaden arteries, they’ve reaped what you’ve sown

The heaviest heart that ever existed (I cannot breathe)

It pins me to the ground with crippled limbs

Choking, facedown in the shit and swill

And I reflect “Why should we exist?” (I cannot breathe)

The light only hides the shadows that have always existed

But will it be enough?

What have I done, what haven’t I done?

It was never enough

Lost, shamed and guilty, deep down I know you tried

I know I tried

But it wasn’t enough

It was never enough

Hear my lament

Watch me grieve

I cannot trust

I cannot breathe

Hear my lament

And watch me grieve

I cannot be trusted

I cannot breathe

Hear my lament

I’m so fucking sorry