A Damn Good Disguise

You long for a bar with a quiet room

But no one's gonna treat you like a kid that way

You've got trouble enough since you fucked the landlord

You're breaking like eggshells from under the car door

The grains of regret still blooming in her face now

Nothing is settled so that makes you nervous

Cause you won't be so lucky when they figure it out

And your hand moves so slightly

She'd scarcely notice what you call audacious dear

I barely count and i won't be there when you change your mind

But if your heart should change i guess i might be found

Whether covered up with lies under paint that never dries

It'll take a damn good disguise to live this one down now

You run very slowly but not without purpose

You step in a verse

You walk always in rain and me

Some small token of your inaffection that lingers unwelcome

And then drifts away

We deferred to your parents

Who gladly consented though you were pretending

And i really meant it

You turn a blind eye to a blank wall

And that's our life

Hey you're killing me with protocol

She acts just like she's seen it all

But i don't think she's seen this

A big shot at the mini mall

You learned it all before

You could crawl

It don't make you a genius

Now the obsessives tribunal has brought you to trial

For an in gratitude that surprises even yourself

And the things you were given that you claim to find vial

You cling to like cancer impeaching your health

And i do not wish this misery upon you or anyone else

That it might desire though

It is my fear darling that it will choose you

And it is my fear darling that you will requite it