Through Empty Vessels

I've been clearing the air

Of every connection we had lost

What a criminal thought

That you gave so much room to multiply

And it left you to soak in conversations

With a door you could not close

And I was intertwined for the first time

With my own lies

As we both crossed a devastating line

In the flood tide

It never mattered why

When we chose sides, we were both right

I've been opening mail

Addressed to the man I used to be

What a cynical voice

That retreats from my lips each time I speak

What a practical joke

But you let it have you

Didn't that just prove my point?

Was it enough for you

The vessel they poured you into?

Was all the damage done?

Out in the saffron field

You were so aggravated

Missing your chance to make your mark

So you tore apart what you had left inside your chest

But if you regret taking that step

You haven't yet

So I threw it all back

The love that I didn't yet deserve

And it's ringing us out

As though it was suffering

Through everything that I've done

So it's over my head

How everything washes up again

'Cause I spent most of my life ruling things out

Sinking my teeth into your every bit of doubt

If I was coming clean

Would it reach you?

From what I've seen it was all true

There's so much left to grieve

Couldn't hurt you to leave it be

Just for one day

Just to see straight.