Defining Moment

They want me to say it all

I've been waiting for the moment

Yeah

I ain't slept in months, got a lot that's on my mind

'Bout to take the ride of my life, a lot up on the line

Life got it's moments, some of them define you

Like losing the love of your life to try to find you

Numb to it now, can't feel a damn thing

Far from reality, closer to my damn dream

Far from family, closer to my damn team

More and more it feel like the same damn thing

And so I ride for my brothers til the wheels fall

I'd told 'em we'd be stacking paper till it's real tall

People whining about the hands that I deal y'all

Go and get it on your own, I don't really feel y'all

This shit is cutthroat, I ain't never been the type

But if you carry dead weight, it's hard to get your money right

And so I'm on a diet, I've been cutting back

I was giving everything and getting nothing back

And I'm through with it

I still remember sitting in the car

You would get emotional, I never felt so far removed

From the feeling of having to make it better

My mind is all in the future, I left my heart in a letter

I'm cold now, everything we had is old now

Least that's what I tell myself, it helps me on the road now

We used to talk about everything

Now I feel like when we talk again

Someone will have you in wedding ring

It's like my best moves hurt the ones close to me

They be asking when the hell did money mean the most to me?

Since I got a taste and I left the comfort zone

Now it's either money or blowing up everything we've grown

This rap shit feels like everything I've ever known

Locked up in the studio, never picking up my phone

It's always some bullshit, I just need to be alone

I don't want no distraction, I been in my zone

Word is we getting love in the city

Funny I feel it's like all I wanted from the beginning

And now I'm too far away, figures though

It's always been motivation for me to get bigger though

Friends were ashamed of my little hobby

Until the women they wanted were digging my music

And now they all be thinking it's chronic

Pardon my trouble of separating real from the fake

Everyone gassin' me up, I just be needing a break

I just tell it like it is and they be feeling a way

They say I'm trippin, I say I'm finally feeling awake

Too much at stake, I ain't playing no games

People guessing the suspects, I ain't saying no names

It's family biz, you suckers don't know what family is

I promise I see it clear, told the team we on the verge

Guess that we'll see this year

My fear is I'll get everything I wanted and nothing I need