Proper Dose

Highs and lows are how I flow

My favorite mirror's there

Wanna look at what I think I know

But all I do is stare

Too long

I defy the proper dose 'cause I'm alone and I don't care

And though that grass is greener it just don't even compare

At all, at all

All this time I wanna give you back

I feel opaque and absentee

Am I just going through the motions

Or is this how I'll be?

Barely focused anymore

The haze is all that I can see

Red bottle, white cap

Slime in my stomach slowly turning

Staring at the grout in the tile

Dry is my heave and my head is burning

Think I'll be in here a while, I'm gone

And my cousin's age is turning

Growing into a man from a child

I wanna watch him play, wanna see him score

Wanna be around cause I need

To make him smile some more