Following My Own Tracks

It's getting harder to decide

on which way I should go

Should I let myself down fast?

I don't think I wanna know

It's over-said but understated just how hard it can be

Hey I think I've seen this road before

and it's so hard to believe

I'd be back this way again after I told myself to leave

You never said that it was gonna be easy

But I didn't know just how hard it would be

I go 'round and 'round

I'm lost and found

I'm never happy in the middle I've gotta be up or down

Just when I think that I've found level ground

I turn around and destroy all of the life I've found

Well self-destruction's kinda dumb

but if you do it well

You can find heaven if you can handle hell

It's all part of understanding just how strange life can be

Living a lie becomes so easy but now

I just want to be free

I feel inside out never thought I'd doubt my ability to work it all out

Going forward to fall back

working hard to relax

I never thought that I would be following my own tracks

It's going 'round

It's going 'round

It's going 'round