Cul-de-Sacs

I've been leaving messages on an answering machine

In a house that's always empty, so I know nobody's listening

I've been confessing my transgressions over tape hiss

And the silence makes me sick

No good can come from this

I'm letting go

I've been holding on like poison ivy

Out of cold suburban concrete

From this careless urban sprawl

I'm letting go

You know we can't keep out of trouble

I thought my kids would call you uncle

I thought we'd never be alone

I've got images of you inside my head

Outside of the gas station where we always used to shoplift

It's car-crash rhetoric

We fucked up everything we came in contact with

Just boyhood recklessness

I'm letting go

I've been holding on like poison ivy

Out of cold suburban concrete

From this careless urban sprawl

I'm letting go

You know we can't keep out of trouble

I thought my kids would call you uncle

I thought we'd never be alone

I'm letting go

If you walked me home, you'd know how weak my arms got

I just can't carry you

If you walked me home, I know I'd have flashbacks

Of snow angels and gut laughs

If you walked me home but you won't

You're all alone on some bullshit, pill-bottle vision quest

If you walked me home, I don't know when I would finally

Work up the backbone to walk alone

I'm letting go

Cause I loved you, but I have to

I'm letting go

You know we can't keep out of trouble

I thought my kids would call you uncle

I thought we'd never be alone

I'm letting go

If you walked me home