This Life I Have

I hate my life

I hate my friends

I hate the way the notebook ends

I hate my job

I hate my car

I hate the cute girls at the bar

I hate my band

I hate my songs

I hate the kids that sing along

But worst of all you made me hate the things I love

Now I love these drugs

That numb the pain

I love the way your knuckles taste

I love the noises in my head

That tell me, "Nick, you should be dead."

But hey this life that I've got's real

I'm reminded everyday

That I will never ever ever ever ever ever ever be happy

That's how it goes

I'm just having a bad night

Maybe, yeah maybe this could be alright

So much to live for I could die

I think this could be the start of a new life

(Oh is this your new boyfriend? oh sweet...)

Now I hate myself

I hate my clothes

Hate that my facial hair won't grow

I hate my brain

And how it thinks

I hate my narcissistic tendencies

My lovely shade of giving up

It takes so much to loosen up

So I'll pop another pill and

Watch the world give up on me

Watch the world give up on me

Watch the world give up on me

I don't deserve your attention

I don't deserve it one bit

I'm sorry if this song

Or if this show ain't what you wanted

You worked so many hours saving up so you could make it

Til a website ripped you off and went and bought up all the tickets

Now we're eye to eye

While I self-examine

My pretty mind, my convoluted, pure depression

Your opinion it haunts me

I just want you to want me

I want my life

I want it back

I want the good times that we had

So I'll just write

When I feel down

And hope the masses sing aloud

I love these songs

I love our fans

I take back everything I said

Yeah I'll enjoy

This life I have