Homesick Dirge

It's cold in this house with the snow piled to the roof

We've been frozen inside for years

We still sleep in our separate rooms

I hope your bed stays full with the indent that I left way back

When I stopped giving everything I had just to keeping you in the past

Can you give me that

And let me step outside?

So now if we don't speak

My love, please don't you miss me

We were wrong from the beginning

And if you want me to

I can drain out the water

That floods our basement windows

That pours into our gutters

But it can't, it can't and it won't change anything

My head rolls back and forth

Again, back and forth

Now through the walls, I hear lullabies sung in their bedrooms

But they're being drowned out by the sound

Of this homesick dirge I can't stop singing

Pass out by 6:00 and wake up well past noon

No one knows if I'm leaving tonight and where it is I'll be going to

Does that upset you?

'Cause it does for me

So now if we don't speak

My love, please don't you miss me

We fell off from the beginning

And if you want me to

I can drain out the water

That floods our basement windows

That pours into our gutters

Would that be good for you

So give my clothes to our sons

Pack this house and then move on

Just know when all this is done

I tried and tried and tried to be good for you

But it's calmer now

I am calmer now