Shades Of Grey

I'm seein shades of gray

Enough prodding to make me hurt, which drives me to my sole desire

Where I got you hanging on my every word, to burn you while I'm breathin fire

See, 'cause I got a plan, I look different on this side I'm somethin like a hologram

Damn, that don't mean I've changed, it just explains

How some things in my life have suddenly rearranged

While I'm starin at my reflection it's lookin somthin like misdirection

Between my life, my love, and passion it's a lonely intersection

And my selection results in constant mental interjection

Giving birth to such aggression requires me to cease these sections

But you see, they find a way to breath

And for me, I find no place to leave to

'Cause I finally found somewhere to land

But now I can't seem to find where I am

I'm lost in this crowd

I'm seein shades of gray

Lookin for the light

But I only found today

I'm trapped in those eyes

And I can't look away

Afraid of the changes

But nothing stays the same

Some say go to the light, others say you must leave it

But in darkness there's clarity even if you don't care to see it

Images taken and replayed such as this thievery

And there seems to be no shortage of the people in my corner who believe in me

But it wasn't always like this no, when I was fighting

And I could say a million words at once but my pen was dry when it what time for writin

Sometimes I just don't get where the ink well goes

And then sometimes my pen hits paper and the rest just flows

Now I tried to exercise my demons but they've gotten out of shape

And I used to be so superhuman but it seems I lost my cape

How could I be that I'm livin so great externally when life's burnin me and internally

It feels like I'm lying awake on the table in surgery

And I'll put on a clinic, I can see that you're a cynic

Thinkin I photographed this picture perfect life and you weren't in it

So I try to live my lessons and ease off these second guessins

I don't need church bells to be ringin to go give you these confessions

I'm lost in this crowd

I'm seein shades of gray

Lookin for the light

But I only found today

I'm trapped in those eyes

And I can't look away

Afraid of the changes

But nothing stays the same

And where that leaves me now

I cant seem to choose

I found some breadcrumbs and it seems that I was leaving clues

But I'm confused as to what they mean

I know I've seen the movie but its seems that I forgot the scene

I'm cuttin the brakes, whatever it takes

The bigger the gamble the higher the stakes

Yeah I battled to build this and I'll never back down

You know where you can find me now

I'm lost in this crowd

I'm seein shades of gray

Lookin for the light

But I only found today

I'm trapped in those eyes

And I can't look away

Afraid of the changes

But nothing stays the same

I'm lost in this crowd

I'm seein shades of gray

Lookin for the light

But I only found today

I'm trapped in those eyes

And I can't look away

Afraid of the changes

But nothing stays the same