Not Alone (Spoken Word)

I'm walkin' out the darkness and I barely made it

Hope this reaches all the people who can not escape it

I was just like you, I was young like you

I was tryna numb the pain I was afraid of facin'

I was tryna run away from the hurt

I didn't know what I would do if livin' felt any worse

I tried the pills and the therapy and none of it worked

I know it kills, but I want you to know that you ain't the first

Your people can't relate if they ain't felt it themselves

Feels like everything they say when you complain doesn't help

Your sinkin' deeper every day, when you're awake you're in hell

You think you changed along the way but now it's too late to tell

It's like you, were rollin' with the thunder and fell

'Cause when the lightning started crashin' I guess you did as well

Your demons kickin' down the door, they're never ringin' the bell

They just keep tappin' on the windows 'til they fall out the cells

I know you're feelin' defeated, you try to keep it a secret

Your weakness got you believin' you need a doctor for treatment

But takin' pills ain't convenient, so you keep lookin' for reasons

To go and flush 'em down the drain and find the faith to keep breathin'

You lay and look at the ceilin' all night when you should be sleepin'

But you've been knee deep in pieces of dreams and failed achievements

You keep repeatin' the moments when you were beaten and broken

And now you're bleedin' emotion, you just want someone to hold you

Well, me too

'Cause I've been standin' on the edge tryin' not to jump

I only say it so you know you aren't the only one

The only thing that killed the pain was smokin' weed and gettin' drunk

Before I knew it I had drank a case a day for eighteen months

I was sleepin' with a beer by my bed

"Last call" was all that I could hear in my head

I know there's too many of us drinkin' to try and forget

But who the fuck are we gonna cheers if we drink 'til we're dead

And when you finally get sober, you find the friendships are over

'Cause you don't have nothin' in common if you're not gettin' loaded

You called them brothers, you called them family, you called them your blessin's

And now they call and you ignore the phone, and that's called depression

They try to tell you your misery is not an excuse

And you just wish they could spend a day tryna walk in your shoes

Just know you're not alone, I feel the same way as you

It isn't you against the world, 'cause I'm fightin' 'em too

It's like you're losin' control, until you drive right off the road

And when the vehicle rolls again you get thrown out the holes in it

Then you notice all of your bones are broken and all of your clothes are wet

Soakin' with gasoline, light a smoke and explode with it

'Til the day that we're ghosts you'll never be on your own

'Cause I'll be standin' in your corner 'til you need me the most

I was put on this planet to lift you up when you're low

And you have done the same for me so I'll be keepin' you close

I love y'all