I'm Not Scared

I'm not scared of you this time

And when you pick up the phone I’ll stay on the line

And I’ll do more than breathe this time

And I’ll let you in at least I'm gonna try

And it felt so strange when I said it out loud

That I look for redemption in everyone else

But funny thing is that I always hated church

Spend so much time looking that I forgot to search

And to be a woman is to be in pain

And my body reminds me almost every day

That I was made for another, but I don’t want to know that

Cause it happened once and I always look back

In my sentience I wear your judgement like a crown

Couldn’t look you in your eyes so I look to the ground

Then I took the drugs again last night

But pills have never brought me any kind of light

My eyes are heavy all I want to do is sleep

But I need to make money and I need to eat

And loving never made anybody I know happy

And loving only seems to make you bruise and to bleed

And to be a woman is to be in pain

And my body reminds me almost everyday

That I was made for another, but I don’t want to know that

Cause it happened once and I always look back