Joy Distributor

I threw my tirades to the wind so I could roam

Through the whitest snows

And gave up my sense of failure and its throne

I'm not a king alone

Then I tried to take you with me and bestow

Some simple joy and hope

Since when have you ever known me to be so wrong?

Or has your faith been lost?

I pushed a little too long on this hurt and now I gotta let it go

I got so dazed but your weakness

Are you brave?

Goddamn you got a coward's soul

So I left myself wide open for your call

A second chance to talk

But when the third and fourth and fifth left me appalled

I had to cut your loss

Gave up so I could get on

My way since you have withdrawn

Any semblance of our home

Don't say that it's been too long

It's past anything that I've known

And I've been waiting all along

Goddamn how do you get on?

I'll never understand how I came to be on my own

I found our carnage laid plain in stone

A gorgeous heartache that I've never known

It haunts the part of me that shows

Your bold impression and takes its toll