Bleeding Thoughts

I sit trying not to disperce

I try to concentrate

My brain refused this option

But I've got to finish this game

Before my dreams catch me and drag to denial

Before I puke all of my insides away

World is spinning around like a top

My conscience is getting unstable

But I must get back on the frontline

As long as I'm able

To move my legs forward

And hold a gun in my hands

To aim it and shoot in my enemies

Wanting to blast me away

I slap myself to remember

That I am still alive

I cut my skin to control

My scattering mind

Blast waves have tattered my ears

I cannot hear screams of the wounded

My brain is on boiling point

I need reset!

I've gto to find the appropriate way to

Calm the beast inside and its will to jump away

Run away

I want to strangle my false cords

My ears are bleeding I can hear no sound

I want to catch up with my liquid thoughts

Cut my eyes out to see the only

I want to strangle my false cords

My ears are bleeding I can hear no sound

I want to catch up with my bleeding thoughts

Cut my eyes out to see the only purpose