On the Inside

I sit alone in my room nobody knows what I do

I'm just so broken and bruised my friends notice it to

If they could feel what I feel or take a stroll in my shoes

Then they would understand but they just don't have a clue

These dudes call me goof loser and make me mockery

Cause I don't have a body like the guys on the soccer team

When walkin' the halls I feel like everyone's watchin' me

It bothers me so much resulting in loss of sleep

I feel ugly that's why my wrist

Has cut scars on every single bit of it

I feel worthless so I wanna hurt this

Joke of a body they say belongs in a circus

It's not for attention it's more of an addiction

I wish there was a medicine to rid me of this sickness

I've been searchin' my purpose for a long time

But something's tellin' me now that I'll be alright

When you hurt hurt yourself on the outside

Does it make you feel better on the inside?

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide

I wear long sleeve shirts in the summer time

Cause I don't want anybody seein' my cut lines

Even though I haven't done it in some time

Every day a little more I'm learnin' to love my

Self for me and block words they call me

There are thousands like me I'm part of an army

If you take a look around its rather alarming

How many people are actually self-harming

Don't you get it its deeper than sayin' don't do it

Some days I wanna fade it's like I'm not human

This is goin' out to everybody going through it

I'll take your pain away and make it fade into the music

Make art trade the blade for a pen

I can see in your heart that you're a ten outa ten

In all honesty promise me that never again

Will you sever your skin you're so much better than this

When you hurt hurt yourself on the outside

Does it make you feel better on the inside?

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide

It's been couple months now since I stopped cuttin'

It's been so long it feels like I've never done it

Though I still have these scars that remind me of it

My fam's proud I found a way to rise above it

A combination of things made me wake up and think

Take a look in the mirror and through my blade in the sink

I tried out for the team might even make it this week

I've got an appetite plus I'm gettin' plenty of sleep

So what changed? Everybody's dying to know

I was dyin' slow now I keep my eyes on the road

I guess I just got sick of compromisin' my soul

Now I want everyone else to realize that there's hope

So if you're stuck in rut then I'm pulling you out

I'll help lace up your gloves so you can knock out doubt

And punch out pain start takin' control of your life

The dark doesn't stand a chance when you're holdin' a light

When you hurt hurt yourself on the outside

Does it make you feel better on the inside?

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide

You said yes but you know that that's a damn lie

It turns a tumbling rock into a land slide