If I Forgive Myself

Would the sun shine with more colors

Or the flowers have more scent?

Would the clouds pass unnoticed

If I cross those paths again?

Would I build the castle, would I bet on that old dream?

Would I taste the sweetest apple full of life instead of sin?

And I know I'll try

Even though I can't forget the many tears I’ve cried

Look up high, above the sky

Even though I cannot see the shine of the brighter star

I am not the same, I learned the hard way

I have to go on

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night

None first time will be the last chance

I will learn to fight

And I've got to hold on tight

If I only knew before

And if I forgive myself

Maybe I have been forgotten like that muse of that old song

Tantrum of an infant, maybe right or maybe wrong

Strange old recollection of my hands in a bare ground

When I was young and strong to carry on

Striving to belong

And I'll try to look up high

For all those years when days were night and many times I’ve died

Cause I know how to survive

For all those tears, for all the fear

For a better tomorrow

For yesterday I'll try

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night

None first time will be the last chance

I will learn to fight

And I've got to hold on tight

If I only knew before

And if I forgive myself

For all the tough roads

For the dust I bring with me

Like a memory, walking astray

All the scars and pain for yesterday

Still remind me what made the deepest cut

It's been a long way

Candlelight, dancing flames in a stormy cold night

None first time will be the last chance

I will learn to fight

And I've got to hold on tight

If I only knew before

And if I forgive myself