Everything As Planned

I don't sleep at night

I just lay and think

About if everything went just how i've planned

And how nothing is going how i've planned

I'm tied down to the bed i've made

The one i've said that i have left

I shouldn't speak before i know

I've built and rebuilt the bed i lay in

But i always end up restless in the same place

I don't sleep at night

And i don't know what to think

About the life i've made for myself

Or have i created my own hell?

Did i set myself up to fail?

Tried to take care of everyone else

Neglected taking care of myself

How can i take care of anyone else?

The one thing i wanted most

Was lost because of my own

My own irresponsibility

Do i get as many chances as it takes?

Or have i not earned them?

Tell me that i have earned them

Tell me that i can...

Start sleeping through the night

Will you tell me that i've created a life for myself

None of us were made to fail

I know without taking care of myself

I can never take care of anyone else

Will i start to sleep at night?

Or will i just lay and think?

About how if everything went just how i've planned

Or if i'm better off it never has

Will i start to sleep?

Or will i just lay in bed?

Will i start to sleep at night?