My State Of Mind

[Werd]

I hate this,

So this is my life, I guess

[Sample]

My motivation is depression and the urge to change

My written words contain, an outlet for pain

I held inside, confined, in this worthless maze

Now my pen bleeds ink to express on page

Hey, is like 'where did ma youth go?'

I wasted most of that, in a booth with a puke flow

I moved around loads through flats in a loophole

And never found myself (nah)

I'm surrounded with people yet I feel so lonely

If only, I held one person closely

Enough, to trust, to talk to solely

I wouldn't need drink and these drugs to hold me

(Up) that's why a feel so shite

Live in fear; shed a tear in the dead of the night

People always going to hate and judge on what I write

I guess a suicide note would be all that they'd like, its like

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Why do I still do it, try and move it to loose it

And while am at loose my mind, though its mine to abuse it

Its no crime spitting fluid, but they stopping the flow, damn,

But I ain't stopping for no man

I know man, that life's as cold as an old man

Who hates everything because he wasted his whole damn

Life with the tripe and the fight for his own calm

But life's not nice when you’re following no plan

Or gave up, but look at things I’ve gave up

My whole social life is a mic in mates clubs

My graves up, what more can be said

Lay a flower on it now because I'm already dead

It’s like

[Sample]

How would you feel spending your time,

Focused on rhymes as your love life's falling behind

Getting chucked out your house as a teen to find

Your own feet in this gritty cold city we reside

And is it fine, being addicted to wine

And weed smokes the only thing that can calm your mind

When petty crime takes the time like right off of school

So now your backpack contains stolen goods and a tool

(Cool) I'm the youth of today

Lead astray with the pencil lead leading the way

And this page is still my best opportunity

So now lets see what few awkward tunes can do

And it will be my release,

You can see the real me as I explain on beats

Not the punch-line chat, nah, I go beneath

Because I'm going out my mind, peace

[Sample]