Good Friday

if you grew up with white boys

who only look at black and puerto rican porno

cause they want something that their dad don't got

then you know where you're at

mortaring your earholes shut in a rush with wet coke

in a starbucks bathroom with the door closed

on booze, i'm left in residue and confused

like the first time you used soft water

down on my luck, caught unaware

like houdini when the last fist struck

if i'm sinking in laughing at something sunken in, i am

sucking dick for drink tickets

at the free bar at my cousin's bat mitzvah

cutting the punch line and it ain't no joke

devoid of all hope circus mirrors and pot smoke

picking fights on dyke night

with shirlies at loc's and snatching purses

doing elton at karaoke and forgetting all the verses

blowing kisses to disinterested bitches

playing lead lay in a bad way on broadway

sending sexy smses to my exes new man cause i can

on the road trying to break an old van

eating pussy for new fans, i am what the hell

using purell till my hands bleed and swell

missing mel at a motel 6, i'm unwell

if i'm sinking in laughing at something sunken in, i am

it feels exciting touching your handwriting

getting horny by reading it and repeating poor me

intently staring at the picture of your feet on the sticker

at the r. crumb exhibit, i wonder who's sicker

jerking off in an art museum john till my dick hurts

the kind of shit i won't admit to my head shrinker

not even in a whisper to my own little sister

i just act like a dick and talk shit when i'm with her

aught six i'll say the friday before easter

was not good i cried to myself in the pisser

and with you in the front row at the silver jews show

and you act like you didn't notice, my fear of the bear

at showbiz pizza when i was six was overwhelming and not dissimilar to this

if i'm sinking in laughting at something sunken in, i am

at jacob hand's on tour i wake up

hung over on a hardwood floor

from a dream about how your dress

hangs off of your little breasts

i'd rather be dead than call this song

how i lost your respect but god bless or get neglected

and i'll see you when the sun sets east, don't forget me