Better For Me

Look, I brought your present back to Tiffany's, yeah, was for your birthday, before you

Hurt me the worst way, I wonder what's gettin' into me

I wonder if your drinks in his mouth tastin' like victory

I wonder why at night every lie still plays like a symphony, I

Can barely focus, you never cared, I was broken

Been hurtin' since my dad passed, bet you wouldn't have noticed

'Cause you were busy blacked out, stumblin', losin' focus

Surrounded by all that's hopeless in life that you never chose, and

Here I go again, preachin' like I know who you are

Too busy stuck inside your phone to ever notice the stars

I miss the nights we'd sing Adele in your car

And had you wetter than the tears that you would cry when discussin' your scars

I know your demons carry weight, don't know what it's like to be you

Built myself from the bottom, don't know what it's like to need you

You lied from the beginning, don't know what it's like to read you

My dad passed away and that day I flew out to see you

Remember? I'm thinkin' back to December

And how we talked about forever, now we talk less than never

I can't lie, sometimes I find myself re-reading your letter

I'm not sayin' I was perfect, still, I wish I woulda treated you better

How could you think this would be

Better, better, better for me?

How could you think this would be

Better, better, better for me?

How could you think this would be

On and on and on again, I fear this voice inside my head

That tells me it's all lies and I should let you go

On and on and on again, I hear this voice inside my head

That tells me it's alright and I should hold you close

And you don't know how many times

I forgive you, just so I could keep you by my side

I don't know why we waste our time

Spendin' all our nights in this gorgeous lie

Now maybe time was just against us, 'cause you had just been broken when I met ya

I tried to take your pieces, and put you all back together

But the truth is comin' out, I feel your void when we're together

Not sayin' that I was better, you drink to relieve the pressure

I know, let's keep it real

I know you loved to lie, but do you find you love me still?

'Cause he will never love you like I loved you, when I promise—that is real

You can delete all of our pictures, but you can't delete your feels

You should be easy to replace

But every meaningless conversation, I see your face

I'm tryna fill this hole in my heart that you fuckin' made, I'm trippin'

Should've known that I would never find my happiness in all of these women

I need to find it in myself, that's for damn sure

Almost been a year since I got you from the airport

Crazy how time flies, I'm tryin' to hold on while

I wait for your call like, "Come out at the bar!" , at night, now, how could this be?

How could you think this would be

Better, better, better for me?

How could you think this would be

Better, better, better for me?

How could you think this would be

On and on and on again, I fear this voice inside my head

That tells me it's all lies and I should let you go

On and on and on again, I hear this voice inside my head

That tells me it's alright and I should hold you close

And you don't know how many times

I forgive you, just so I could keep you by my side

I don't know why we waste our time

Spending all our nights in this gorgeous lie