HURT

It doesn't feel right with you gone

It hurts too much to be left alone

I know I was never in your plans

But it doesn’t feel right in her bed

It hurts to know

Yeah, if only I knew to love you, I would lose me

Or wake up just to go back asleep

I hope you and him live happily

But the memories, girl, you gon' have to keep

All the lies that you told me are on repeat

I don't know what’s real, you lied through your teeth

If I could take the feelings that I have for you

Just like our pics, I'd press delete

I've been contemplatin' a hundred times

About a hundred facts I found out were lies

I know you used me just to pass the time

But you could never say I didn't fucking try

What you meant to me is what I mean to art

Was real with you from the fuckin' start

You played games with my fuckin' heart

And after you, I fell a-fuckin'-part, damn

I know we weren’t perfect

I guess I thought we were worth it

I guess your love was uncertain, you’re busy at the club flirtin'

Friends just keep feedin’ you bourbon

Car smellin' like his cologne and your weed

For months I would think: Is he better than me?

I know that he can't love you better than me

I wonder, was it your intention to cheat?

Can't believe I believed you

Keep telling myself I don’t need you

When talking to her, I just see you

Alone, but surrounded by people

Maybe one day you'll change and he'll reap the benefits

'Cause all you left me were questions and pain

Don't know why I care if you're feelin' the same

I need to just get you up out of my brain

I know I was never the plan

You're not the you you would claim

You're not the person I met

Don't know the you you became

Was addicted though to the pain

And the constant games that you play

Just being real when I say that still

And I tried to give you a chance

But things were never the same

I ended up all alone

You ended up with a lame

Was addicted though to the pain

And the constant games that you play

Just being real when I say that still

It doesn't feel right with you gone

It hurts too much to be left alone

I know I was never in your plans

But it doesn't feel right in her bed

It hurts to know

Still, you're who my family adores

Maybe that's why it's hard to ignore you

After all of the time that we spent

Sad to think that I still didn't know you

Woke up in a city that we've never been to

I wish I could show you

Even my music, I put it below you

Just know I would had done anything for you

Remember I told you I felt inadequate

Because you came from a family with money

And me, I have nothing, I work as a waiter

With visions of turning myself into something

The music was buzzing but I couldn't pay for a bill

Off of people just saying they love it

Had class in the morning, had work in the evening

Then write through the night with no food in my stomach

Just know that it's hard

Damn, girl, it's so fucking hard

I keep tellin' myself that I need to move on

But it's hard to get close when you have up a guard

I know everything changed, the old me would prolly feel shame

For the bottles I've bought on my card

You would go to the bar while I was stuck working the double

To pay for the tank in my car

And I guess that it's best I pretend like I don't give a fuck

Even though, to be real, I'm a mess

I've been trying to find anything I can find

Just to fill in the hole in my chest

And it's sad to believe that a picture with me

Is a picture of you and an ex

You should know that it takes everything within me

To delete when I'm sending a text, like

It doesn't feel right with you gone

It hurts too much to be left alone

I know I was never in your plans

And I ain't just can't get you out my head

It hurts to know