Wonder If You Wonder

Know its been a long time, I hear you're doing just fine

Graduated, got a job and you been working a grind

You're never looking behind

I know you never found me crossing your mind

But I'd be lying if you didn't cross mine

From time to time I see some of your pictures online

Kindest Regards was hard, I left my heart on the line

I wrote a song for you, took a couple months of my time

How can you praise him for flowers and a bottle of wine?

You'll never be mine, remember the time I came to see you?

I thought it would just be you, but there's twelve other people

You see there was never "We" so we could never be a sequel

Thought it might've been a date the day, did anything to see you

But I'm nothing more than nothing, you're bluffing saying you care

Our only real connection is memories that we share

I would never try to blame you, cause blaming you isn't fair

Not that you care, the stress is really starting to wear

And in my music, I took our story and I used it

Don't care how you were feeling, I'm busy dropping my new shit

Know people gonna love it, I'm buzzing after I do it

I'm gifted with the curse of honesty and the truth is

I loved you more than words, I didn't know how to prove it

Can't tell you that in person, but always could through my music

Everyone who said they cared isn't there, now I'm confused

I'm broken and bruised, lonely, open, empty and stupid and still I

I thought I had it all figured out

No, you would never fall for me now

I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now

You can hear the pain in my sound, laughed as I fell to the ground

I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now

And I can't lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn't want me

To know I never tried is what continues to haunt me

Every pic I see is you and him, his twitter tryna taunt me

You think I let it go? This is old and exhausting

Some offspring family in a house is what I thought about

Sometimes I wonder if he'll get that now

See we know that you picked a different path

Me I picked a different route

And I can't help but laugh at how this all played out

You're over me now, I'm hoping you found only the best

Remember when we used to rep that Kanye West?

Graduation and rotation cause you liked that best

And back then I didn't want you, now look I'm a mess

I open my chest and through me you can see no spine

My profile pic and lyrics I've been hiding behind

It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find

The only you I love is the one that I create in my mind and still I

I thought I had it all figured out

No, you would never fall for me now

I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now

You can hear the pain in my sound, laughed as I fell to the ground

I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now

I often wonder if you ever did care

I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there

See we were friends, but that felt more like pretend

This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear

The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated

And nowadays our conversation is: Hey happy belated

And every song I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it

Because you realize that you never felt the same when you played it

You never cared if I made it, that's why I waited, you know me

See all the love that I've been getting through my phone feels phony

I rhyme a couple words together, every girl wanna blow me

Were in a world full of people, yet I'm feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there's plenty fish in the sea

But see the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I'm fighting to breathe

I realize that I'm in love with what I thought we could be