Coward

Yo, staring at a picture of white Jesus

Hanging on the wall of my mom's house I grew up in

Too much controversy, change the subject

Nah, let me give you the context

Pistols and bomb threats, my boy got killed and I wonder if I'm next

This the type of question that can leave your mind vexed

The truck rolled over, but me and my sister living feeling like I shoulda died is a different kind of feeling

So I see 50 diamonds in the ceiling

Where I come from we need a different kind of healing

You tell me what's appealing?

Noodles and grilled cheese

A middle finger to the world, hustle till ya get it

And I did it eagerly, a lot of people didn't

We all gotta find a way so get it how you live it

I know it ain't the answer it's just the way I see it

But dope boys and rappers is all that we ever seeing, yea

Somebody show me how to use this power

Somebody tell me am I king or coward?

All I can tell you is what I've been through

All I can show you is how I feel

Feeling my heart, where do I start

Holding my dear son in my arms surrounded by death

My sister got a scar on her chest when do I turn hopeless even when I'm trying my best

I try to help cuz I know my wife is depressed

But job loss over here got me feeling distressed

So I smile and tell everybody that I'm blessed

Even though I can't explain to you the weight that's on my chest

Tell me who do I run to

Cuz everybody in my life is fake as they come dude

They don't ever come around

You want me to trust you

I know I've done a lot of things I can't undo

But, my little brother had a baby

Tell you all the things I've been thinking bout lately

Now bad things they don't ever really phase me

Crazy maybe welcome to my life in HD

And if everybody hates me

They don't hold a candle to as much as I hate me

You don't like what I say

You can stand in line, get a number, wait some time and come and debate me

Nothing you could really say could ever deflate me

I'm the definition of everything that deface means

But when you face me, face me, but show me grace please

Somebody show me how to use this power

Somebody tell me am I king or coward?

All I can tell you is what I've been through

All I can show you is how I feel

Like the culprit, I sound like the bad guy

I may have to forfeit my crown for the last time

Somebody show me how to use this power

Somebody tell me am I king or coward?

All I can tell you is what I've been through

All I can show you is how I feel