A Billion Ways

She's so tired of waking up, so tired

Dark circles under her eyes, she's so tired

Thinking god forgot to put her wires together like macgyver

But her smile shines well of a thousand watts and higher

Desire to go out without assistance

They're afraid an episode is inevitable

Seven months old, the first storm

Mother and father in tears over the crib watching their first born

As her retinas flutter, body shivers

Gift or a curse is what the good doctor delivered

Efforts to cope, they hold her at nine years old

Nine years strong, they hold her down when she convulse

Check her pulse, it beats her down whole-heartedly

Was tranquil and quiet prior to her starting a scene

Trying to communicate through a channel

She blew a fuse and lost the signal when it was scrambled

She's a lot like us in a billion ways

Everyday seems the same

Round and round, round the way

And when i think about it

I wanna turn my face

Never be seen anyone

She hates what she sees in the mirror

Nervous, can't understand why she can't cheer up, it's not working

And i could get a little slimmer is what she thinks

In front of her body frame just left of the school pictures

More junk food than a chute, chuck it in the garbage

Sloppily treating her body like a dumpster then she vomits

Violently, doubled over then wash up

The bile in me goes quicker than anybody would ever notice

Ten pounds less and still going

Chipper in front her friends, the binges well kept

Her face is sunk in, there's not much else left of her self-esteem

One too many failed attempts

With vanity bad as her teacher know she can't keep this up

She's turning into what she eats

Depressed and thinks she's fat no matter what

Across from her shrink hysterically crying saying i've had enough

But when i think about it

It makes me turn my face

When the beast sinks its teeth in me

We are a lot like her in a billion ways

Golden angel go lay

A billion days, a billion days

Wasted

Take one step forward and two steps back, back, back

There ain't no pill that i know gonna bring her back

So scandalous, a vampire on beat in the heat of the night

She's admired from a distance through a slab of glass

In the eyes of a man who pays cash for ass

He pulls up alongside and asks how much

And she replies twenty for a blow, fifty for a -

Only eighteen and still a child, she climbs in

And hikes it up, he slides in and then busts

She's a lot like us in a billion ways

Everyday seems the same

Round and round, round the way

And when i think about it

I wanna turn my face

Never be seen anyone