Nowhere Train

I fool myself again and again

Because the light in the tunnel was just a train

And the train was running the other way

And the light was only fading away

Seen from above it’s like I’m doing this dance

Going up and down while turning around

It’s a vicious circle and I can’t get out

Locked in darkness, lost in doubt

In the bardo my life remains on hold

Stuck in the middle, out in the cold

So let’s start the fire, let’s start that war

Now I know that’s what I’m here for

That little spark of hope inside

Is it made by the rain or made by sunlight

What if the light was just a train

At the end of the tunnel still down the drain

Lying gets easy when you know the truth

Some hollow words for a greater good

It’s a vicious circle and you know the words

Say them on repeat even if it hurts

I have a happy pill against the pain

It makes me feel like I’m on that train

Driving through the tunnel without getting out

Still locked in darkness, lost in doubt

I’m on a train to nowhere

I’m on a train and I want to get out