I'll Find A Way

I heard they found a way to no set place

That they’re way ahead and winning but there’s no real race

And they’re feeding on the thrill of a chase

When they’ll never find a way to keep the pace

I heard they found a way to build our dreams

Can they engineer a world in which we hear no screams

And I heard that they can make vaccines

But our sick routine isn’t keen to relieve

I heard they found a way to see through walls

Do they have the sight to see my scars

And can they find a way to view who we are

Or does such vision just exist in the far

And can incisions ever fix all the vying that persists

Can a needle cure the evil through the arm

I’m told they have the means to travel to the stars

But can’t journey to the start of the savage in our hearts

So if I’m ravaged and afraid

Damaged and apart, tired of charades

How can I clear the smoke that billows

Wade through to cope and chisel out a life that’s worthy and of praise

My whole life’s passing me by

As I sit and wonder why

I’ll find a way

They say tomorrow brings a brighter day

But do they know about the sorrow that’s beyond the fray

Do they see all of the madness that man obeys

And can they understand that sadness won’t go away

But it’s okay cuz the truth is I’m feeling whole

Feeling like the emptiness inside has found a home

And I’m hopeful that my destiny is one of heights

One in which the apathy in me no longer strikes

And I wonder how this ending has come to pass

When just yesterday was carefree and full of laughs

But if there’s certainty in anything it’s what we have

Is but impermanent cuz no thing will always last

Yet still I can’t help but question fate

Can’t shake the feeling that I hold the key to great escape

And I feel in me a yearning that still endures

A spirit wandering and eager now to find a cure

Believe me this is pure essence, pure intention

It goes beyond mere conversation and confession

It’s much too vague to formulate into expression

But perhaps there’s something greater that we’ve all been set in

And this is not to say I know the way

This is not to say attachment’s been put away

This is not to say my love for you’s been held at bay

And I don’t possess or know a simple route to change

But it is to say I hold you close

And it is to say the love in me is more than most

And it is to say your absence has left it’s mark

But I tell myself this plays within a bigger part

Now you are not the only way to make me whole

Know that I won’t ever turn my heart to stone

You are not the only way to make me whole

And I won’t ever turn my heart to stone

And I’ll find a way

I’m not without a spirit that can hold up to the torture

Not without a will to stop the cycle that marauders

Not without a mind to free the hate within my border

And to cleanse the vessel into which my consciousness is ordered

I’m not afraid of monsters that intimidate and taunt ya

Not afraid to challenge all the violence and slaughter

The leviathans that haunt are hardly deadly out of water

I’ll find a way to offer the elixir of disorder

So many trails have crossed the rivers forged from all our tears

So many paths have left us all alone during these years

So many that we’ve lost but I can feel their presence near

I can see a road ahead that leads beyond the known frontier

So lift yourself up slowly and rest your eyes upon me

And let the sad and lonely float away and disappear

And leave the guilt and shame and all the anger and the fear

Let's trade it for the will to find a way to persevere

My whole life’s passing me by

As I sit and wonder why

I’ll find a way

How long can I surrender for

How deep can my descending bore

How long can I neglect me for

How long is this confinement for

How long can I arrest me for

How long can I detain me for

How long before I stray off course

How long before all hope is lost

How long can one survive among the horror

Live among the demons that all seethe in darkened corners

Cling to all the grief released in tidal waves upon ya

Proclaim it isn’t fair, content to bear forever mourner

This moment is in order

Now let the waters pass

Let the smoldered ash remain beside the olden past

Leave it on behalf of those who crave to hear you laugh

And walk among the living as you find a way to last

How long can I survive this for

How long can I abate this for

How long can I remain this strong

Well how long can I just sing this song

I’ll find a way