I'm Not

I wasn't holdin' on to words that you never meant

Problems with myself 'cause of the things that I never said

Brea-, brea-, breaking down the walls between us

Only to find that the open door was straight ahead

So tell me, what am I breaking my back for?

I should've asked more, probably, could've relaxed more

When I was tripping, could've filled the re-stamp on the passport

Now I'm just guessing that I'm gettin' the payment I asked for

This is exactly what I never came back for

Bеcause I'm not searching for forgivenеss

Because I'm not taking back the things I've done

And I'm not making your decisions

Because you're everything I'm not

Can never live in the background

It's getting harder to stop this bleeding back

Never needed to back down

Been underwater and I'm still breathin' in

Next up, my God I've got one million and one more reasons

And I've got my heart turned up

Sick of trying to fighting this feeling

Because I'm not searching for forgiveness

Because I'm not taking back the things I've done

And I'm not making your decisions

Because you're everything I'm not

Because you're everything I'm not

As I take in my last breath

And this weight is on my shoulders

I don't need to second-guess

Won't let you in

Feel this pain inside my chest

And we're only growing colder

I don't need to second-guess

I let you in

I'm not searching for forgiveness

Because I'm not taking back the things I've done

And I'm not making your decisions

Because you're everything I'm not

I'm not searching for forgiveness

Because I'm not taking back the things I've done

And I'm not making your decisions

Because you're everything I'm not