Matter Of Time

I'm half way home

But its still a long road to be traveled

And I know at any given moment

Things can go soar

From sweet to the streets on fire

Problems unravel

Still holdin my breath

Boots laced for battle

In a place

Where they would gladly

See me scattered all over they streets

Cause here my life don't matter

And thought they smile

Underneath those grins

They only waitin on they next chance

To try to kill me again

And don't be caught thinking out here

That your chances are slim

Cause there are those who have thought it

Who will never think again

Cause we're alone in this country

140, 000 Friends

And some 20 odd million

That ed see us all dead

You could only imagine our struggle

The odds were against

Where they are at all times

Playin both sides of the fence

And thought they havnt gotten me yet

I still aint home

And till then

Its only a matter time till I'm gone

Its only a matter of time for they get me

Though so far they missed me

Next time they shoot in my direction

Could be the one that hits me

Yeah the odds is against me

Lucks been wit me so far

I know deaths round the corner

But I don't know how far

And I aint trying to hear my #

Though it could be the next one called

Told my family I'd be home

But iraqs trying to prove me wrong

This weighs heavy on my shoulders

I can only be so strong

Sure we all gon survive

But we don't know how long

Started out with 60 minutes

In the game of our lives

And so far thank God

Everything is alright

From bein in the middle of the street

In the middle of the night

Where they are baitin they hooks

Castin and hopin I bite

And its too late

Here to be worried whether or not this is right

When its somebody on every corner

Ready to widow my wife

And I can feel it more than a lil bit

Impactin my life

Got me wantin to kill everything

That moves into my sight

Cause I can lose only once

And there are no rematches

And there is no 2 minute warning

Cant brace for it happens

So we face it

And come so close we can taste it

The one trip we take everyday

And hope we never make it

Cause deaths right behind us

And some of us will never shakem

But when we are challenged

We can not refuse to playem

So we knuckle the fuck up

And start swinging

Know its only a matter of time

But right now we are not leavin

Its only a matter of time for they get me

Though so far they missed me

Next time they shoot in my direction

Could be the one that hits me

Look here, I'm trying to keep it together

But things fall apart

Specially when I'm gon for so long

Losin feelin in my heart

Desensitized by my surroundings

Every colors turning dark

I don't see nothing beautiful no more

Only targets my reticle marks

Was emotional then emotionless

Now I don't feel a thing

And though it once killed me to kill

I'd gladly do it again

If only you could really understand

The state of mind that I'm in

Only then could you feel me

Only then would I make sense

If only I hadn't a been to

Some of the places I had been

If only I wouldn't a seen what I saw

Maybe I could feel again

But its too hard to separate

Whats goin on within me

Its just so much easier

To let hate be my remedy

So for everything I'm guilty of

Let the lord sentence me

If only I wouldnt a let everything

I been thru get to me

Things could a been different

But that is not my reality

And either way

It's only a matter of time for I'm outta here.