When Can I Be Me

There's always this struggle

To find my tongue

This silence mistaken

For consent by everyone

And there's always this aching

And there's always this need

Every road I'll be taking

Cursed by fallen trees

When can I be me she asks

When can I be me ?

This whole world takes my hand

Brings me down to its level

And demands who I should be

Who I should be

Your kisses blind me

I drown in your sin

It will be six years before

I see the box I'm in

Then the rules of engagement

Will be forgotten in the war

I see this relationship

As it sinks beneath the floor

I'm underneath you

Two distant eyes

My fire suffocated

My desire compromised

So far underneath you

Dead in your arms

You still hear me breathing

My instinctive charms

But when can I be me?