Eternal

Plunging from zenith

Spiraling ever so downward

Oh, why do I hold on to this dismal feeling?

Descending ever so downward

I feel lost

Reaching out through the dark

Hoping for answers gone

Every moment in ash

The wick has burnt away

There were moments burning bright that I hold on to tightly

Now I stay awake and gnaw my wounds more than nightly

And I can’t see what’s illuminated right in front of me

With every shaky breath I lay awake in melancholy

I lay in my dismay

Another love now lost so pathetically

Lacking the will to push

Too weak to strive, to reach out for the light

I’ve traced my tracks through the sands

To find out where it all began

And if I could relive those times I would have burned brightly

Resonating

In a state of disillusion

I’m constantly reaching for validation and evaluation to create a conclusion

Desperation

This never ending desire to know where I’m standing

And I’m not forgetting the moments that I have been feeling cast down

To this abyss to be dismissed of all my bliss and I, to my core know that I can be more

Than this and I try to keep my soul so alive, but I dive ever so downward

Stifling the call of my heart

These shadows are draining me of my spark

Choices I’ve made now tear me apart

This mountain of mistakes I’ve made from the start

Has ever diminished my senses and spirit

I sew my eyes shut, for the dark I revere it

Bathed in failure

I’m so full of missing pieces

As I lay in my dismay

I now have found, I’ve lost my way

No conviction behind my every word

No restriction to habits I’ve deemed so absurd

I can’t feel

I don’t know what is real anymore, and to my dying core

I’m lost inside an eternal war