94 Dreaming

Three, four

Back to serious voice

The frame ain’t the same no more is it

I painted this picture and let the words reflect my image

Sometimes the truth hurts

Like the first line of this verse

I expected too much

Thinking they were just like me

I’ve got to start being selfish

Helping others left me helpless

When a river meets the stream

'Til the sky falls to its knees

And I could sit here for hours

This perspective

Trespassing thoughts

Behind locked doors

That belong to thrown away keys

You see

Needing me or need me not

Dictates your smile

Falling into lines like I ain’t heard from you in a while

I’ll be whoever you want

Providing you put your mind to it

Try'na buy my freedom

Should it afford my pride

I wish I could believe you

But I can’t

There's too much on my plate

Pour me another glass

Drowning in these sorrows

'Till I found peace with my past

Drawn into a world where the flower is defined by the vase

And that’s young me by the windowsill

With questions that view can’t answer

Guess it’s too early to say

If what we've made are mistakes

You just wanna

Lose your mind to find your soul

I just need to

See the world before I call this home

I used to run riot when I was young

Confused, try'na distinguish where someone like me belongs

When did I become the man

The cool kid, I was never that

When they’ve learnt to love you for all but yourself

Your deluded wealth undermines your coming so far

Shattered glass

Family portrait suddenly finds the present

As we pick the past up

And recall it as heaven

It’s never seemed so insignificant

Everything you worked for

Too precious to enjoy

Ourselves we avoid

These thoughts we employ

Too much noise

We just listen for the silence

That sits between the sirens

And I just found a place that no-one else knows

Watch the sky reach 'til it lets go

I’ve never been afraid to close my eyes before

They’ll paint you how they want to in the end

I knew that you’d show

Been caught up where you found me before

Wanna go

Somewhere only we would know

You said "I thought I told you to stop dreaming"

But your reality never gave me the reason

To stop believing

I chose the darkest path

To emancipate my own feelings

Clouding the vision

Distorting the meaning

I mean its clearer now than ever

Growing up under pressure

Nothing's ever promised

A slave for the word better

If you see me you don’t know me

Stop pretending

You never attended

Not to mention

I was left to put to bed all of my questions

But I’ll sleep on it

Dream bigger

New frame of mind

The bigger picture

Fingers travel scriptures

'Till we capsize

I’ma keep running

We sinning

Pushed back to the beginning

The past speaking to me like a family 20 minute visit

Dreamt of this line last night

Stood at some height

Over the city, prepared to leave all these memories behind

Compromised by my desire to make it all on my own

You’ll begin to sink in when you’re stone

Yeah, we need a comparative perspective to be free

Happy despite all that you haven’t seen

Scared to look for answers

'Cause you know what they might be

94 Dreaming

Still looking for a mirror that I believe in

And I just found a place that no-one else knows

Watch the sky reach 'till it lets go

I’ve never been afraid to close my eyes before

They’ll paint you how they want to in the end

I knew that you’d show

I’ve been caught up where you found me before

Wanna go

Somewhere only we could know

When they’ve learnt to love you for all but yourself

Your deluded wealth undermines your coming so far

Shattered glass

Family portraits suddenly finds the present

As we pick the past up

And recall it as heaven

It’s never seemed so insignificant

Everything you worked for

Too precious to enjoy

Ourselves we avoid

These thoughts we employ

Too much noise

We just listen for the silence

That sits between the sirens